sangabriel mountains

In almost five years of blogging, I have rarely re-posted previous work. Last Saturday, I wrote a post about the Year of Magical thinking and loss. Little did I know that an earthquake of loss would hit our community within hours of writing it. Sadly, with a heavy heart, I am reposting this from a few years back…because there simply are no words…


Twelve years ago I had a phone call that changed my life, a car accident, a death and nothing was simply ever the same after that call. A dear friend just received that same call and so it all comes flooding back…the pain, the loss, the heart-break that feels like it will never end….it is simply too much. There are simply no words….

As I struggle with how to hold up my friend, I find myself thinking about loss and growth. I think many of us feel that growth comes in tiny layers added up over time and that each day’s journey gets us a little closer to inner-growth. I have a different theory.

I believe life is like an earthquakes where huge jolts cause cataclysmic shifts like tectonic plates to our souls. In nature these shifts result in mountains. Inside each of  us is a similar experience. When the rocking stops we somehow come out shifted. Our vision becomes clearer, we see what is important for the first time, we learn gratitude in everything and the growth is as monumental as a mountain. It is the growth of our soul.

When I sat down to write this week about soul, I had no idea how I would conclude. I certainly didn’t envision this, but as I struggle and question why? I know that why an earthquake has leveled a family, I can only pray that the shift will bring the strength, foundation, and the beauty of a mountain to each of them.

These are simply words, when there really are none…

Charity Matters.


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  1. hi heidi…it’s kathy perasso…
    your words …your passion for others ..touches me every morning as i read Charity Matters…today, you touched my heart in a way that there truly are no words…touched my soul at its core…deep deep inside of me ..simply thank you for sharing your heart ,your light, your are an amazing person..bless you sweet heidi!

    • charitymatters Reply

      Thank you Kathy for blessing me with your very kind words, so often I write and wonder is anyone out there? Does anyone hear me and your lovely comment is a gift that I treasure. So thank you. Please keep my friend in your prayers. Big hugs, H

    • charitymatters Reply

      Thank you Devin, that means more than you know.

  2. Carolyn Johnson Reply

    Love you, Heidi! You should be proud of how you have grown and what you have accomplished.

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